ARGHH!!!!!!

I may have finished Shadow Kissed, like, two weeks ago, but i dont think i ever recorded anything on it. Okay, here it goes. Oh, and if you havent read the book yet, then dont read ANY on this.


I AM SOOOO MAD AT RICHELLE MEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First off, Dimitri CANNOT be strigoi!! It just can't happen!! Now i know the universe is going to perish!

Second, How is Rose going to kill him when she LUVS him. I mean, HE ROX! If he died, then so would Rose because one can't live without the other.

Third, CLIFFHANGER MUCH?!?!

But there are good things; now theres a plot for the fourth book, Blood Promise, which comes out in July. I know, too far away. But i have other things to read while i wait.

Like Bliss^^

Bored out of my skull

Right at this very moment i am at my godmothers house. The two young boys are playing on the bed......and being very annoying about it. But whatever. The little girl just came in. She's so cute.

Today me and my father were supposed to go out and buy a digital camera. But one of my great aunts had a mild stroke. She's fine though. She's old and crazy and doesn't even speak a word of english.....i dont even know what she says half the time. But anyway, we couldnt get one. But i told him the model i wanted and he said he'll get it sometime this week or something.

Well, this was short and sweet....and the boys are now fighting. The oldest one is a pain in my ass. He's whinny and hates to lose. If he keeps that up, he will never make it in the world. I'm so sick and tired of scolding him that i just give up now. He's the only little kid i have problems with.

And only him. God, when i have kids, i'm going to make sure their not brats like him.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Current read: Suck It Up!


Those who get offended by me saying Merry Christmas, suck it up because the holiday first originated as Christian and so thats what its called! Plus, its not called Happy Holidays! No. Being politically correct may be a pain in the ass, but you know what; this is something i like being PC about!

Okay now that that's out of the way <33 I hope every person in the world had a great christmas. I got so many things and i'm greatful for them. I'm going with my father Saturday to get me a digital camera^^ Instead of buying me a bunch of little things, he just gets me one or two things that i really want. Which is cool. I cant wait. I got a bunch of iTunes gift cards ($85 worth) and i've already bought 2 CD's. Emilie Autumn's Enchant and Twilight Soundtrack. Enchant is still loading, but im listening to Twilight now. It's a good CD. Bella's Lullaby is so pretty.

Heh, even though it's vacation, my track coach wants to keep us in shape, so i still have practise my whole vacation. I only have 3 days off, Christmas eve, Christmas Day, and New Years Day. NoT even New Years Eve. Which sucks dreadfully *ANGER!* All well^^ i'll live.

Merry Christmas to all! And to all a Good Bite!

BLog entry: cute

Okay, i decided to give him a chance. I didnt have the heart to break up with someone whose only flaw was the way he kisses. Its wrong and selfish.

Anyway, he bought me the most beautiful necklace. Its a gold heart with a hole in the middle on an silver chain. He also wrote me a poem. It goes like this:

It's cold outside
It chills me down to my bones
The cold creeps in
Freezing my heart and soul
I'm frozen and unfeeling
Then you came along
You made me feel again
It may be cold outside
But now i have someone to keep me warm




ITS SO CUTE

BLog Entry....HELP!!!

okay, i just went on a date to see a movie with my...boyfriend. We saw Four Christmases, which was okay. It was funny, better then i thought.

Anyway, i met this kid on a Spanish trip to New York and my friend brought along this kid with her. He was okay.

He asked me out that day.

i said yes and we started going out.

As i was saying, we were going to the movies and we kissed.



IT WAS SCARY!!



he's a great guy, though, he is really cute and really really sweet. He treats me good and he seems like he really likes me. But he's also akward and a SCARY kisser. i mean, i dont normally judge with the ways guys kiss,.....but it was like he was chewing gum!!!

i'm going to try to tell him to just be friends monday......i feel so bad......

Okay, now that thats out of the way, i seriously think im losing my mind.....like i really do think i'm going crazy....and i dont know what it is.

i keep saying things i dont mean....im hearing voices.....and i'm have mixed feelings about everything. its sad, very sad. My mother and i fought a while back and i said that maybe i should see someone for help, but she refused and yelled at me more

I've only felt worse since then. I dont want to tell my friends because they hear enough of my complaining everyday, its sux to be them lol....

I finally got Shadow Kiss by Richelle Mead. I've been waiting for it for ever!!!!

okay, its getting late, i need to get to sleep, i have my friends birthday party tomorrow, but i cant say what i got her yet, just in case she reads this....

Twilight Movie

Okay, i know that everyone who read the book Twilight knows that the movie is not as good as the book. You are almost right...

The movie covered all it could in a 2 hour film. It wasn't great, but it was acceptible. Though i do think they could have picked a better Edward, even Stephenie Meyer agreed (read it in newspaper.)

Anyway, the movie came out two days before my best friend's birthday, so there were 4 of us plus her parents and little sister. After the movie, we watched the credits (dont ask) and one of my friends had to...ahem...go to the bathroom. If you watch the movie, you'll understand why that's funny. Anyway, the fact that she told me her bladder was full was a big mistake. I have a talent of making your bladder feel like its going to explode. I do it to lighten the mood, and because i think its funny.

Finally, she couldnt take it so we had to leave. I had to go as well and in my stall there was SO MUCH GRAFFITI!! Right where i could see it, someone wrote 'Rob Zombie is fucking great!!'

I agree 100%, but i dont want to think about that while im in the bathroom. Also, to my right, someone SCRATCHED a heart and in the heart was Kate & Ross. I know a Kate and i know a Ross, but i dont know if they went out or now.

Oh, and one of my friends has a crush on me. But i have DONE with dating for a while. Luke was an ass to me, and i'd rather not get my heart broken twice in the same year. I will atleast wait until 2009.


HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!! *gobble gobble gobble* :)

Worse Halloween Ever

I had a plan....
A plan to spend my favorite holiday with my friends.
My best friends.
But that plan never happened when i told my mom,
"Your going with your sister, Tuna (my sisters boyfriend), Joey and his little brother,
because i am not trusting enough to let you go on your own around the neighborhood with your cell phone and two friends who also have cell phones. You might destroy the town." she said.

I was sort of cool with that....until i realized we weren't even going in the neghborhood and that we had to walk all around the town with me in the most painful shoes my sister could offer.

This Halloween;

REJECTED!

Blog Entry #<

Okay, I went out with Luke, but he was a major jerk. I don't even think he even liked me at all. When i told him we should just be friends, he was all, "Okay, whatever." I mean, i don't like him anymore, but he could have at least paused or sighed or something. Anyway, it doesn't matter. I like someone else (though i am not ready to date for a little longer^^) the only problem with this kid is that i'm known for hating him.....and i have no idea how to make friends.

My friend (i know, weird, isn't it?) said that in Algebra i sould just walk up to him and say "You are my new best friend" for the next week and a half, then start talking to him about my problems. I don't really know him, so being friends with him would make me a little better. I don't remember why i hated him, but i guess he's alright. So tomorrow i'm gonna be all "YO MY NEW BEST FRIEND, BITCH!" and call it a day. I'm known to be pretty silly in Algebra anyway, so this won't be anything new to any of the classmates.....except maybe the kid i like.






i need a hobby....

Blog Entry # &

I've been feeling really weird lately.....

Like, I've been hearing voices (they actually talk to me), I've been feeling really depressed, and I seem to be doing better in school (my mom still thinks i could do better.) I haven't been crying as much, but I just don't seem to care anymore. I am actually reading a new book called Lord Loss by Darren Shan and I'm still bored. Nothing is entertaining me and i just feel....empty.

Is this what it's like to be in a relationship? I like him and i don't feel this empty around him, but when we're separated i just feel so bored with nothing to do. I don't LOVE him at all, but i guess i just need the company...







Then again, it is that time of month....

Blog Entry # l (cont. 2)

okay, i sounded a little too overwhelmed...sorry....


my day? it was great. I went to school, had a good time, went home and i am now babysitting three small boys...

do i have a headache? HELL YEAH!!

but as long as i get paid. I have to pay for my own Halloween costume. Imma be a vampire (surprise surprise!) I already found the dress at K-Mart. it is only $25 and i cant wait to get paid. My face is already pale most of the time, so i dont need to use any fake crap. I still need to get fangs and i'm borrowing my sisters fishnets from when she was a vampire a few years ago. and he shoes. I need about $30 to get the whole costume and after today, i'll have ... 32, and if my mom goes to to the bank and give me the $20 she owes me, then i wont have to use my sisters shoes



i cant wait 'till ~~HALLOWEEN~~

Blog Entry # l (cont.)

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blog Entry # l

I told him that i liked him.........














i am blushing RED!!!! i am talking to him on myspace right now......g2g, he responded

Blog Entry # *

Okay, i have finally come to my senses about the guy who liked me.

but now theres another....

Don't think of me to be someone who just drops one person and goes to another, because i'm not like that. The senior is...well....older then me and it would never work.

My new crush is a freshman, but he stayed back a year. He is so cool. He's a bit....((how do i put this delicately)) i dont know how to explain it, but i do like him and he gives the best hugs ;)

*sigh* but he thinks hes ugly, im talking to him right now saying that he is very good-looking.

We have a lot in common because i think i'm fat.

My friend thinks we make a cute couple because he was hugging me in Robitics Club today.

Oh yeah, i'm in Robitics Club by the way. My crush is in it and he was sharing a seat with me and all and *dreamy sigh*

i dont know if he likes me though. I think he flirts with me and i flirt back.

MY GOD HE IS CUTE!!

Blog Entry # #

Okay....what haven't i said in the past few posts....

I went to a movie yesterday and saw Ghost Town. I thought it would be a scary movie, but it was rather hilarious. It was about this guy who HATED people, i am serious, he just completely wanted all people dead. Well, you should see the movie because it was great.

What else happened....?

I read this book called Silver Kiss. The author is the one who also wrote Blood & Cholcolate, but i forgot her name. Anyway, the book was amazing, but it was sad too. I loved it so.

Did i mention at all that i finally got ahold of a book i've been trying to get ahold of? Well, i did, it was The Chronicals of Vladimir Tod by Heather Brewer. I havent read the second one yet, but i'm waiting for it at the library. That series is great, no joke. (yes, its vampire)

OMG, theres this guy who likes me and i like him back, only problem is that i'm a freshman and he's a senior.....Help me!
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Blog Entry # %

Sorry about that last post, i was pretty upset.

Anyway, i'm reading this book called Silver Kisses and so far its so cool. My brother recommended it to me and told me it was a good book, so yeah. It's a vampire book, of course, so yeah.

Speaking of vampires, my library is having a little vampire party where we can all dress like vampires and such. I cant wait!! its next month so i have plenty of time to buy my costume. uI already have like blood and stuff, but you know ;)

I got my band uniform for school and it is FUNNEH LOOKEN!! No joke! Acutally, the uniform is a joke, but thats not really the point. At our first game yesterday i wore my favorite striped socks under the pants, but then my teacher told us all to where black socks next time. He got a real kick outta my socks when i showed him. But we didnt get to play our halftime show because of the rain. I dont know if our team even won the game. Probably not, my team kind of sucks and we havent beaten this team in 20 years. But we scored first touchdown so at least we fought it.

Blog Entry # @

I dont know what to do, there was so much going on today, i actually cried. (i'm not trying to be tough, but i barely ever cry.) Most of it is confidentional, but some i might be able to tell.

Today i went out with my sister her boyfriend and some other friends. We were just out doing errands for my mother, and then my bro starts talking about...

i'm sorry, i cant say this. I'll keep something interesting later. Sorry for the sudden stop-ness. I'm too upset now to finish anyway

Blog Entry # ?

I finally have my own digital camera. It was my sisters old one so its not all 'Hey, yeah, I'm new and better then you,' in fact, it sucks. But it's mine and its all i have at the moment. It'll do for now anyway. The camera took the new picture of me near my About Me section....i told you it was horrible.

My bro told me that a boy that sits with us in the morning likes me and he will not tell me who!!! I am so frustrated at him!!! He did tell me one kid, who just likes me but apparently doesn't date...i dont talk to him at all even though we are in the same homeroom, but whatever, I just really want to know who the other kid is!! He said that my sister and my mother know him and that i talk to him all the time. But the only boy i talk to his Chris and he's gay! He said he will shake hands with him to let me know, but he'll probably do it when i'm not paying attention.

Got to go eat dinner now, more soon

A Day That is Today...

I have no title. i'm probably going to just call them Blog Entry # from now on or something, i dont know.

It is early, i know, but i just wanted to share with EVERYONE!!! I got a new pet. He is a Beta Fish. He is red. I named him Crimson. My mother got him at the wedding she went to. Fish was the center piece for the tables at the reception. Yes, this is short but i dont give a damn.

I just started reading this book, its called Night Road by A.M. Jenkins. I've never heard of him before, nor have i ever read his books, but this is a book that is kind of like vampires, but they use the word Hemovores, which is some other spieces that have the same symptoms of a vampire. It okay, i'm only on chapter 4 so nothing has really happened.

I Almost Forgot...

I'm getting a part-time job so that i can pay for those cool Chuck Taylors i mentioned before...i need a job because my mother refuses to buy me anymore sneakers, so now i must fend for myself.

Sometimes, i just want to die for a day and come back

Catching Up

Okay, i have no idea the time was when i last posted......and i'm lazy to check.....but i just started school on Aug. 26. it wasn't bad at all. I have most of my classes with my friends and the school is great. I already have my little gang of Emo kids who are much older then me.....actually i just hang out with them in the mornings in the cafiteria....i dont really know any of them yet. But they are cool and they love me and all my friends.

The first day i met up with them (second day of school) this kid who was probably a Jr. or Sr. was looking at me. not in a 'your in my way' kind of way, more of a 'i dont know what to make of you' kind of way. It wasn't rude, i mean, here i was, a freshman, hanging out with kids who are much olde then me. Another thing was that he didn't talk to any of his friends really. He just sat there in his seat listening to his iPod. I wanted to tell him me name and i wanted him to know mine, just to make a friend. But i have no idea how to do things like that without there being awkwardness. And i hate being awkward.

IF ANYONE READS THIS BLOG, YOU MUST CHECK OUT THE AWESOME RANDOMNESS OF ERIN! her blog URL is http://lifethroughanartistseyes.blogspot.com/ it is long, but that is totally cool. She is interesting!!

I went to see Disaster Movie yesterday and it was FUNNY!!! i've never actually seen a spoof moive (i have no life) but i really liked this. It was stupid and dumb in a way that could only make me laugh. I went with my sister, her boyfriend, and my friend, Joe (i think of Joe as my older brother....then again, my sister did adopt him as a younger brother...)

I have no idea if i mentioned this in previous posts, but i broke my iPod and had to get a new one, well, i did and it was FREE, even though i do not have the warentee (however the hell you spell that) I replaced all 370 songs in 10 minutes and i'm listening to Gone With the Sun by H.I.M. You should check that band out.....IT ROX!!!

My mother is going to some wedding and thank god i do not have to go, i'll just hang out and do things....i dont know what they are yet though.

I went on converse.com and made my own pair of chuck taylors. They are Black and Purple and such.

crap, my mother just broke a pair of her favorirte shoes....guess who is getting blamed. Your truly

My new hair

Okay, you know in my default picture i have a little red in my hair? You know...it's all...red n such.....

anyway, i washed it all out (it was from last year anyway) and now i'm back to my original hair color...sort of, my natural hair is almost black and the hair i have now is a little lighter. Anyway...just thought you ought to know because i like it this way and when school starts in two days everyone will be all OMG!!!!!

or maybe even WTF? but i dont care, their hair sux anyway

This is cool

I just got my contacts today.

My God!! I took forever to actually get them in my eyes^^! My mother makes it look so easy. But i eventually got it and now i'm a pro! I just took them out now because i have to wear them for about 4 hours on the first day then add an hour each day until i get to 8 hours, then i can wear them all day. I didn't get purple ones, but these are fine....to be honest, i might forget how to put them in tomorrow morning for Band Camp (WHICH IS WORSE THEN DRUMLINE!!!!)

A Great Day

Yeah, title says it all.

First, i went to the eyestore to get a perscription for contacts. I went in and the guy put them in (incorrectly, of course) and told me to go to Contact Classes tomorrow at 2:15 P.M. Contact Class is just a session teaching you how to put in your contacts correctly so that you dont hurt yourself. I cant wait. The only bad news was that i wont be able to get purple ones. The reason why is a little too complicated for me to understand, so yeah.

I'm not sure if i mentioned this (i probably did though) but my iPod pretty much exploded on the inside, so i had to go to the Apple Store to get it fixed. Well, guess where i went today: The Apple Store.

The place was awesome, you could acutally play on the Mac computers and listen to the iPhone and iPod touch and everything. And the costumer serves was excellant. I walked in with my father and three workers asked us if we were all set. It was annoying, yes, but still, not many stores do that. To make everything better, i get a FREE iPod to replace my broken one, and i didn't even have the right warentee. We just waited...then again, some asshole cut in front of us right when the worker was looking at my iPod, but hey, if i get a free iPod out of waiting in the Apple store with a bunch of active Mac labtops, i'm not complaining at all. The only bad news in this is that the worker had to order a new one and will call my father when it comes in in about 3 to 4 days, so i'll have it by the weekend, probably so i'll already be with him.

Well, there is my great day. I hope you have one as well ^-^

Yep...

I have a lot to do this week, so yeah...

Tomorrow I'm going to my friends beach house somewhere. I know i'm going to have a lot of fun, i always have fun with her. Plus i've never been to a beach house. But before i go there i have to help my Aunt out a little with a yard sale. My Great Aunt died last year and we finally sold her house, all we need to do is sell her stuff now, i guess. I've never really hosted a yard sale, so yeah.

Monday i'm going to go see HellboyII: The Golden Army with my friend, Joey, my sister, and her boyfriend. I've been trying to make plans with them and i finally have anough money for a ticket. I can't wait.

Tuesday is orientaion and i'm a little nervous. I haven't seen my classmates in forever and i got alot of new clothes that might not be my school style. Whatever, if they give me lip i'll ignore them

Wenesday...CONTACTS APPOINTMENT!!!! i might be able to get purple ones, depending on the price.

I go back to school on the tuesday after orientation...

OMG!!!!

School starts in two weeks....high school...


i dont think i'm ready!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy Crap!!!!!

HELLO!!!!!!

My internet is down so i'm typing all this from the library.

...wow, nothing seems to have happened in the past few days....except that i've been reading books, mostly. Call me bookworm and call me a nerd, but i love to read. The characters in my books understand me and i understand them...

Has anyone ever read Boys that Bite? or Stake That! or Girls the Growl??? no? well...i've been reading those along with Breaking Dawn, Vampire Kisses, and something else probably.


I start freshman year in high school in two weeks...TWO FREAKING WEEKS!!!!!! All well, i hope i meet some hot emo boys ;-)

~W00T!~

I FINISHED BREAKING DAWN!!!!!

Sorry, 'bout that, just wanted to SHOUT TO THE WORLD!!!!!!!!! Ahem...gotta stop that.

Anyway, I have had my nose buried in the pages of Stephanie Meyer's last book in the Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn, and let me tell you, what a story!!! I'm not going to say anything about it in case you are someone who hasn't finished reading it yet.

A few days ago, i went to some beach in some place with my grandparents, two aunts, my sister and her boyfriend. The beach was crazy; on low tide, it took you 20 minutes to walk to the water and get wet and another 20 to come back. But when tide was high, it took less then a second, depending on where you are set up.

After the beach, we went to eat ice cream. I had frozen yogurt because of my diet, but it was homemade like the rest of the ice cream. After the ice cream we went to a tower, and here comes the wierd part, i dreamt of the tower!! I had never been there before, but in a dream. I looked up at it, completely in surprise. I thought it was weird. I recognized almost every detail of the tower without looking at it, even the writing on it. It was wierd. Theres a word for what happened, but i forgot it.

A Family Reunion to Remember

I just got back from a Family Reunion and let me tell you Whoa!!

At first, everyone was a little intimidate, then everyone started to get social. The reunion was at my Auntie Phelma's house and she lives near a pond and she had a bunch of tubes and boats and stuff. At first, i was a little shy to get into my bathing suit, but nobody looked at me like a cow. I have been skipping two meals, trying to get a better body for high school. My friends say I'm not fat, but i dont believe them. If this doesn't work, I'm probably going to just puke the fat out.

Me and my sister went out on the paddle boat, not knowing that the plug was missing and the thing was filling with water. She was freaking out because she is such a spaz. The whole pond wasn't at all deep, only about 10 to 15 feet. Where we were was shallower; only up to our chests. Anyway, here we are in the middle of a pond trying to get the water out. The thing was sinking fast and we only had one life jacket. I told her to take it because she was freaking out so much, but she threw it back at me. In the end she took it and we both jumped off. Our kind and helpful family decided to come at the last minute to help my sister and i. Once back, everyone was saying how funny it was, but i told them off. I said to them, "I don't think it was very funny, being in a situation like that." I wasn't too scared, it was my sister i was sticking up for. She was crying in a bigger, sturdier boat. "Why don't you go out there in the middle of the pond while a boat is sinking and all your family just sitting safely on the dock, laughing and I'll ask you if your angry." That is a direct quote.

Everyone apologized and we left. We had to pry my sister off the big boat, but she's fine now. She apologized for freaking out on me, but i told her not to worry about it, she was scared and i had to take some kind of control over the situation.

Auntie Phelma has a good heart; she was concerned and i bet she told my stepfather, her husband, and some other relative to go get us. She has a good heart and i love her for that.

Another downside; I didn't have the chance to go tubing T.T

Crap! (part 2)

Sorry about that, i was using the computer at my friends house and he wanted to go on.

Anyway, turned out i did end us sleeping, with the help of some Tylenol PM. My mother suggested it when i told her i had a headache. She probably thought i was going to sneak out or something. The pill had no side effect...other then drowsiness, it didn't kick in for a half hour after i took it and i couldn't get comfortable, but when i tried to get up, i was so dizzy so i stayed put. Granted i slept well, but i don't want to do it again.

Something weird seems to be happening to me; there was a storm last week and it was thundering and lightening and everything. I wasn't afraid (quite the opposite) i was laughing. Uncontrollably. I couldn't stop laughing until i almost chocked myself in my pillow. I don't know what made me do it, but i did.

I'm going to start keeping a real diary once i go back to school. I'll try and keep this up, i kinda like it, dispite the fact that nobody really reads it, probably. I already have the book, but with every great diary, you need a great pen, so once school shopping starts, i'll get some really good pens, ones that work.

maybe red or purple or just plain black ^.^

Crap!

The reason why i haven't been posting is because i've been grounded. Apparently, my mother thought i yelled at her on the phone when i really didn't, so she thought that was worth 14 days of my free time. Also, we got into a huge fight a few days ago and she slapped me hard, I can't even remember why we were fighting; it was early in the morning and i had my period. Anyway, now i can't go to the Breaking Dawn party that was supposed to be an all-nighter thing. It's tonight and i'm kinda pissed at the moment. But at least i can actually get the book, which is good because i've been only waiting my whole life for it!!

I started reading a new series that i found somewhere, its called Vampire Diaries and its awesome. I just got them yesterday and i'm already on the last book, Dark Reunion. It's cool for books that were written in 1991. Once I'm done with them then i'm going to read Breaking Dawn which i'm going to get probably tomorrow afternoon. there is no way i'm going to sleep tonight.

more later

Sweet

i slept over my friends house the other day. Her name is Emma and she managed to get on my mothers good side somehow, but in reality, she's eviler then i am! and i'm one hell of a villain, let me tell you. Anyway, we watched a few episodes of Invader Zim (ZIM EATS WAFFLES W00T!!). Emma is an awesome friend. She's letting me borrow her Full-Metal Alchemist Manga. I'm only on volume 3 but that's only because i just started.

I went to my father's house today. I go there every weekend. I like my room there better because i have MY OWN!...and the bed is bigger. I also had softball practise. We're in the championships so we need to PRACTISE! good thing i actually went to this one because we practised plays and such and had these weird code names for the plays like 'Soccer 1' 'Soccer 2' and 'Soccer 3' Why they used Soccer? I have no clue, i play outfield so i don't need to worry about crap like that, plus i'm quiting after this season, so .... yeah.

I finally know the tattoo i'm going to get; a bar code. I even know what numbers i'm using, but i'm not saying anything yet because i feel that i should wait. Emma really supports my decision, and she helped me decide some of the numbers.

Untitled...

Yeah....i didn't have a title...big whoop.

Anyway, in my last post, I told you about the camps and such and I already forgot....but I do remember mentioning James, that kid who thought there was something wrong with me, well i think he might have read this or something because he told me that i looked pretty depressed that whole week and he wanted to make sure everything was fine or something like that....I have short term, anyway, he's not a bad kid.

No, i do not have a crush on him.

Wow....

Well, the camp i actually wanted to join has finally come. It's band camp and i am not afraid to admit that i play the saxaphone. I like to play it and it makes me feel wanted. Some of my old friends from last year still go, but not all of them...which is kind of sad.

One of my friends, James, is making me a little depressed. He plays Saxaphone too and he's better then i am. I'm not going to say that i'm depressed because he's better then me, but he's just making me depressed. We just got these really hard pieces of music and he already knows it by heart on the third day! Plus, he always asks me, 'Are you okay?' everytime i don't get a part down. I mean, SERIOUSLY!! Shut the hell up James, I'm fine!!

But i can't tell him that. I know he means well, but i just wish he meant better.....

In other news:
I'm trying to convince my mother to let me have contacts. I wear glasses and, frankly, i look really!!! geeky in them. I'm also trying my luck into letting her get me a guitar and lessons. Like i said, trying!!! I don't even know how the contact thing is going to work. She told me to be good this summer and i can have them for high school in september, but i think she's already mad at me for giving her a hard time at softball camp, and making a wallet out of tape. She already said that she would give me five dollars and a new wallet if i get rid of the one made. But i made that wallet...and i love it. Acutally, if i ever get a boyfriend that i love, i am going to give it to him, then i'll go in with a deal. but for now, it's mine and i turned down $5 and the most expensive wallet i could see for it.

Another reason why I'm not Goth...

I went to a Red Sox game last night. They're my team! It was fun and I had a good time. I also went to a Patriots game in December. I also had a good time, though I'm a little disappointed that they lost the Super Bowl. It was pretty stupid of them and they made a lot of mistakes. The Super Bowl was on my birthday so now I feel cursed.

Finally!!

My mother is going on a cruise for 10 days starting sunday (tomorrow.) i can't wait. It'll just be me and my sister, whose totally cool. Seriously. she may not be a metal-head like me, but she understands me.

Today, i woke up with bug bites. No big deal, i was playing outside yesterday so of course i would get eaten alive, but these bug bites were on my neck. yeah...weird. Anyway, they're really itchy...i wonder if this is what a vampire bite feels like...

Is it the clothing i wear?

Warning:
This blog will probably be very confusing for those who are stereotypical....

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Okay, I like to wear black clothing, but I am not goth.

Sure I like to read vampire books and I really wish I was a vampire and I hate everything about really preppy people, but that doesn't mean anything, only that I'm DIFFERENT!

For you numb-skulls who don't know what a metal-head is, its someone who is seriously into rock/alternative/metal music and other such genre's. My iPod has a lot of it and i love it!! I don't even listen to the lyrics, really.

My username for this site is merely a trademark. I use it so that i dont get any confusing questions. You may think it's stupid, but I don't think so and this isn't your blog anyway.