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Micheal Jackson has died...

R.I.P.

I got this on Facebook

1. What color is your toothbrush? black
2. Name one person who made you smile today: Kayla
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? second period
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? getting food, i think
5. What is your favorite candy bar? Milky Way
6. Have you ever been to a strip club? no
7. What is the last thing you said aloud? Do you want me to turn the water off now?
8. What is your favorite ice cream? Rasberry
9. What was the last thing you had to drink? milk
10. Do you like your wallet? yeah, it's cool
11. What was the last thing you ate? fruit bar
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?nope
13. The last sporting event you watched? tennis in the other court
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? theres more than 1 flavor? butter
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to? Kristen Fields
16. Ever go camping? i don't remember
17. Do you take vitamins daily? I'm supposed to
18. Do you go to church every Sunday? I think i would burn
19. Do you have a tan? nope (I'm afraid of skin cancer)
20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? no!! that's a foolish thing to ask
21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? sometimes
22. What did your last text message say? im bored
23. What are you doing tomorrow? school, then coffee house
25. Look to your left, what do you see? my sister's senior picture, a cybunny, my iPod
26. What color is your watch? black
27. What do you think of when you hear Australia? My friend Meghan, who went over the summer
28. Who do you admire most? my best friends
29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? depends. I don't really eat fast food anymore
30. What is your favorite number? 13
31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone? my sister
32. Any plans today? n
o33. How many states have you lived in? 1
34. Biggest annoyance right now? my Cell Cycle project that i'm gonna fail
35. Last song listened to? Poison Girl by HIM is playing now
36.Can you say the alphabet backwards? not really
37. Do you have a maid service clean your house? yeah, ME!
38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? Grafitti airwalks
39. Are you jealous of anyone? a little, but i'm only human
40. Is anyone jealous of you? i don't know, people don't walk up to me saying their jealous of me
41. Do you love anyone? you'd like to know!
42. Do any of your friends have children? God, I hope not!
43. What do you usually do during the day? school
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now? Ms. Nunes, Bio teacher
45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? Hey or hi
46. What color is your car? don't have one, but my bike is blue
47. Do you like cats? AWWW!! of course!!
48. Are you thinking about someone right now? no, I don't think when i listen to music
49. Have you ever been to Six Flags? yep
50. How did you get your worst scar? i ran into a very hot metal plate and got 2nd degree burns on my left hand. I somethimes can't feel the top of my hand because of the nerve damage

Idk

I don't know why, but i feel really depressed today.

I mean more depressed then usual. I feel like crying and i cant really think straight.

I think it might be because my friend went back to New York. But, frankly, its none of my business, none at all. He went for a stupid reason anyway, but i'm not going to say what that reason is. My sister was really upset, but it didn't affect me at all. Not one bit. In fact, whenever a friend steps out on my life, i erase any trace of them from my person. Pictures, movie tics, you name it. I do it to ex boyfriends to. I think i'm probably feeling the emotion now or something.

But it doesn't matter, I've had friend's move away or just leave, I'm used to it.

But, even as I write this (because i know no one even reads this anymore) i feel like something is pressing on my throat and the feeling leads down my chest to my tummy. I miss him, yes, but i miss everyone i can never see again.

I'll live.

I guess i do know why i'm depressed today lol. (no humor)

Washington DC

This weekend i went on a four-day trip to DC with my band. We had a competition and our concert band got 3rd (which was a total rip off) and the jazz band got 1st (which was awesome) we also got a special award for the jazz band saxophones. I am a saxophone, but Jeff, a senior, got all the credit even though we all played perfectly, except for our warm-up song which didn't count against us at all. I was pissed at that.

Everything else was soo much fun. We stayed at a five-star hotel and i was roomed with my best friend and her friend. Her friend is reeeeealy annoying. The first day in DC she complained about EVERYTHING!!! We did go to bed early because the competition was early the next day, but she freaked out because it was too dark, so we had to leave the bathroom light on. Then, my friend sneezed and she freaked out about that too. Also the heater running she sort of yelled. Then, there was a tiny bit of traffic outside and she complained that "some people were trying to sleep." I was pissed. I could feel my friend controlling her anger. We didn't get to sleep until 11:00 PM. That morning, we got a hotel wake up call and i accidentally thought that my friend was my alarm clock so i reached over and hit her (we were sleeping in the same bed). I finally realized that i didn't have an alarm clock and answered that phone. I said hello only to be answered by a machine saying, "Hello, this is your wake up call." i slammed the phone down and punched my pillow.

We visited the Washington Monument, FDR Memorial, Lincoln Memorial, Jefferson Memorial, World War II Memorial, Korean War Memorial, and Vietnam Memorial. We also went to both Smithsonian Museums and the Holocaust Museum. At the Holocaust Museum, i bought a cute little doll. I named her Molly Dolly, but i call her Molly. She's an immigrant girl, supposedly. The bus ride home was dragged a bit. We ate breakfast at Hard Rock Cafe (Which is my Church!!!) and finally set for home. We made too break stops in Delaware and Connecticut, both at gas stations. For Lunch in Delaware was a small veggie cup with ranch dressing and some cheese crackers that made me sick. Connecticut i got a salad from McDonald's.

Riiight

yeah, i did have the baby last weekend. But i didn't feel like posting the times and what it did. Lets just say it kept me up ALL NIGHT!!!

Happy Easter btw.

I'm Getting a Baby!!!

Okay, I'm not technically having a real baby. It's actually a simulation my health class is doing. I was hoping to get it last week, but i turned in my permission slip too late. No matter, i get it this week. My friend did do it last week and she said it was a lot of work, but fun in a way. Call us geeks. O-O

I told my father i was getting the baby this week and he was balistic, mostly because i'll be sleeping over his house this weekend. Hey, he'll have to deal. I luv ya dad, but if i'm gonna be up at 4 in the morning trying to figure out what to do with it (feed it, rock it, change it, burp it,) then your gonna feel the pain too. By the way, i do need to to all those things.

Pros: I get to be a like a realy parent and get wierd(er) looks from people. it'll be fun, torturing my family and all. an extra grade for the most vile class in school. & i get to name the baby!!!!!!

Cons: It'll be hard work. I'll have to be up all hours of the night trying to make it SHUT THE HELL UP!! & my dad will probably make me fail by throwing it out the window, slamming it into the wall, ect.

I will try to keep a record here. If it's too late to put my computer on, then i'll record it on paper and type it out here. Why am i doing this? Because i feel like it :)

Now i am definatly sure

I now know that i am bipolar.

I know, a weird thing to say and the most random to say, but absolutly nothing happened today and now im taking long walks when i have time. Maybe it's acutally some sort of depressed spring fever? I don't know, what i do know is that i don't really like talking to people anymore....or at least less then i used to.

*heavy sigh*

Oh! But there is some good news!!! Maximum Ride!! My world's most fantastic series. And that's saying something because, for those who know what a vampire freak i am, only vampire books are allowed in my reading life.

Anyway, if i tell you what the books are about, then you'll think that there stupid, but really, they are so fantastic. They even have a blog here on blogspot. maximumride.blogspot.com
But i would read the books first, or check out there website, maximumride.com
The blog is written by one of the caracters, like Tommy in Generation Dead.

Well, i'm typing this at the library and i have other things to do, but check out those books, there amazing!!

Almost for got

Track Season:

COMPLETE!!!!!!!

*party party*

No Title

Let's see, what has been happening in my oh so interesting life.......

Not much.

I decided to stay with my boyfriend and now i can barely think about leaving him. Me without him is like salad without dressing.....yeah, that was cheesey, so?

I'm at the Library now. I have nothing better to do until i go to my friends' big Valentine's Day sleepover. No boys allowed!!! It's an anti-romantic thing we're probably gonna do from now on. Just to have some girl time. Nothing serious.

Speaking of Valentines Day....HAPPY MUSHY MUSHY KISSY KISSY DAY!!!!

Yeah, i never was one for romance, then again, i was never one to have a boyfriend either.....you never know what might happen in your life. We're all still young.


My birthday was recently. I feel the same, actually. . . .I guess ageing will do that until your hit 30. . . .an age i am definatly dreading. . . .

What to say, What to....

Oh, if ANYBODY knows the ballad 'Scarbourogh Fair' PLEASE TELL ME!!! i asked so many people at my school (teachers included) an none of them knew about it!!!! I am so pissed off! I mention this because i am reading a book that was inspired by it. I haven't finished it... HELL, I'M NOT EVEN CLOSE!! but it is good. But i am so pissed because why doesn't anyone know about the classics!! It's not even that old.

Anyway, i bet people stopped reading this at my Valentines Greeting.

I had a dream...

I dreamt I was taking a tour of some random place in Washington. It was my mother and sister. The guides were these three guys...i guess i should give them names. Um....James ('cause thats my bf name <33) and...Joey ('cause thats my best guy friends' name). Anyway, they were showing us around--mind they were only a few years older then me--and they took us to this small room. I forgot what they said about it, but music was playing from nowhere and James was dancing by himself. So i joined him to dance, right when a slow song started! This James looked absolutly nothing like the real thing, but he was cute...though i forgot what he looked like. Anyway, we danced slowly, but it was anything but romantic. I wasn't wearing some Renaissance dress that magically poofed on my body, i was wearing jeans and an old sweatshirt. He wasn't wearing one of those Renaissance outfits either, just jeans a a T-shirt. Anyway, we danced for, like, 10 minutes. I looked around the small room, just as my family and the two guides were leaving. They locked me in the room!! I don't know how exacly i got out, but i did. The hotel we stayed at wasn't a hotel at all, it was more of a dank room with sleeping bags. By the time i got there, there were no more sleeping bags. So i think i shared with my sister, but i couldn't see the sleepers face. Then i woke up.

I'm not entirly sure why i decided to share this with people, but i just thought i should.

ARGHH!!!!!!

I may have finished Shadow Kissed, like, two weeks ago, but i dont think i ever recorded anything on it. Okay, here it goes. Oh, and if you havent read the book yet, then dont read ANY on this.


I AM SOOOO MAD AT RICHELLE MEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First off, Dimitri CANNOT be strigoi!! It just can't happen!! Now i know the universe is going to perish!

Second, How is Rose going to kill him when she LUVS him. I mean, HE ROX! If he died, then so would Rose because one can't live without the other.

Third, CLIFFHANGER MUCH?!?!

But there are good things; now theres a plot for the fourth book, Blood Promise, which comes out in July. I know, too far away. But i have other things to read while i wait.

Like Bliss^^

Bored out of my skull

Right at this very moment i am at my godmothers house. The two young boys are playing on the bed......and being very annoying about it. But whatever. The little girl just came in. She's so cute.

Today me and my father were supposed to go out and buy a digital camera. But one of my great aunts had a mild stroke. She's fine though. She's old and crazy and doesn't even speak a word of english.....i dont even know what she says half the time. But anyway, we couldnt get one. But i told him the model i wanted and he said he'll get it sometime this week or something.

Well, this was short and sweet....and the boys are now fighting. The oldest one is a pain in my ass. He's whinny and hates to lose. If he keeps that up, he will never make it in the world. I'm so sick and tired of scolding him that i just give up now. He's the only little kid i have problems with.

And only him. God, when i have kids, i'm going to make sure their not brats like him.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Current read: Suck It Up!


Those who get offended by me saying Merry Christmas, suck it up because the holiday first originated as Christian and so thats what its called! Plus, its not called Happy Holidays! No. Being politically correct may be a pain in the ass, but you know what; this is something i like being PC about!

Okay now that that's out of the way <33 I hope every person in the world had a great christmas. I got so many things and i'm greatful for them. I'm going with my father Saturday to get me a digital camera^^ Instead of buying me a bunch of little things, he just gets me one or two things that i really want. Which is cool. I cant wait. I got a bunch of iTunes gift cards ($85 worth) and i've already bought 2 CD's. Emilie Autumn's Enchant and Twilight Soundtrack. Enchant is still loading, but im listening to Twilight now. It's a good CD. Bella's Lullaby is so pretty.

Heh, even though it's vacation, my track coach wants to keep us in shape, so i still have practise my whole vacation. I only have 3 days off, Christmas eve, Christmas Day, and New Years Day. NoT even New Years Eve. Which sucks dreadfully *ANGER!* All well^^ i'll live.

Merry Christmas to all! And to all a Good Bite!

BLog entry: cute

Okay, i decided to give him a chance. I didnt have the heart to break up with someone whose only flaw was the way he kisses. Its wrong and selfish.

Anyway, he bought me the most beautiful necklace. Its a gold heart with a hole in the middle on an silver chain. He also wrote me a poem. It goes like this:

It's cold outside
It chills me down to my bones
The cold creeps in
Freezing my heart and soul
I'm frozen and unfeeling
Then you came along
You made me feel again
It may be cold outside
But now i have someone to keep me warm




ITS SO CUTE

BLog Entry....HELP!!!

okay, i just went on a date to see a movie with my...boyfriend. We saw Four Christmases, which was okay. It was funny, better then i thought.

Anyway, i met this kid on a Spanish trip to New York and my friend brought along this kid with her. He was okay.

He asked me out that day.

i said yes and we started going out.

As i was saying, we were going to the movies and we kissed.



IT WAS SCARY!!



he's a great guy, though, he is really cute and really really sweet. He treats me good and he seems like he really likes me. But he's also akward and a SCARY kisser. i mean, i dont normally judge with the ways guys kiss,.....but it was like he was chewing gum!!!

i'm going to try to tell him to just be friends monday......i feel so bad......

Okay, now that thats out of the way, i seriously think im losing my mind.....like i really do think i'm going crazy....and i dont know what it is.

i keep saying things i dont mean....im hearing voices.....and i'm have mixed feelings about everything. its sad, very sad. My mother and i fought a while back and i said that maybe i should see someone for help, but she refused and yelled at me more

I've only felt worse since then. I dont want to tell my friends because they hear enough of my complaining everyday, its sux to be them lol....

I finally got Shadow Kiss by Richelle Mead. I've been waiting for it for ever!!!!

okay, its getting late, i need to get to sleep, i have my friends birthday party tomorrow, but i cant say what i got her yet, just in case she reads this....

Twilight Movie

Okay, i know that everyone who read the book Twilight knows that the movie is not as good as the book. You are almost right...

The movie covered all it could in a 2 hour film. It wasn't great, but it was acceptible. Though i do think they could have picked a better Edward, even Stephenie Meyer agreed (read it in newspaper.)

Anyway, the movie came out two days before my best friend's birthday, so there were 4 of us plus her parents and little sister. After the movie, we watched the credits (dont ask) and one of my friends had to...ahem...go to the bathroom. If you watch the movie, you'll understand why that's funny. Anyway, the fact that she told me her bladder was full was a big mistake. I have a talent of making your bladder feel like its going to explode. I do it to lighten the mood, and because i think its funny.

Finally, she couldnt take it so we had to leave. I had to go as well and in my stall there was SO MUCH GRAFFITI!! Right where i could see it, someone wrote 'Rob Zombie is fucking great!!'

I agree 100%, but i dont want to think about that while im in the bathroom. Also, to my right, someone SCRATCHED a heart and in the heart was Kate & Ross. I know a Kate and i know a Ross, but i dont know if they went out or now.

Oh, and one of my friends has a crush on me. But i have DONE with dating for a while. Luke was an ass to me, and i'd rather not get my heart broken twice in the same year. I will atleast wait until 2009.


HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!! *gobble gobble gobble* :)

Worse Halloween Ever

I had a plan....
A plan to spend my favorite holiday with my friends.
My best friends.
But that plan never happened when i told my mom,
"Your going with your sister, Tuna (my sisters boyfriend), Joey and his little brother,
because i am not trusting enough to let you go on your own around the neighborhood with your cell phone and two friends who also have cell phones. You might destroy the town." she said.

I was sort of cool with that....until i realized we weren't even going in the neghborhood and that we had to walk all around the town with me in the most painful shoes my sister could offer.

This Halloween;

REJECTED!

Blog Entry #<

Okay, I went out with Luke, but he was a major jerk. I don't even think he even liked me at all. When i told him we should just be friends, he was all, "Okay, whatever." I mean, i don't like him anymore, but he could have at least paused or sighed or something. Anyway, it doesn't matter. I like someone else (though i am not ready to date for a little longer^^) the only problem with this kid is that i'm known for hating him.....and i have no idea how to make friends.

My friend (i know, weird, isn't it?) said that in Algebra i sould just walk up to him and say "You are my new best friend" for the next week and a half, then start talking to him about my problems. I don't really know him, so being friends with him would make me a little better. I don't remember why i hated him, but i guess he's alright. So tomorrow i'm gonna be all "YO MY NEW BEST FRIEND, BITCH!" and call it a day. I'm known to be pretty silly in Algebra anyway, so this won't be anything new to any of the classmates.....except maybe the kid i like.






i need a hobby....

Blog Entry # &

I've been feeling really weird lately.....

Like, I've been hearing voices (they actually talk to me), I've been feeling really depressed, and I seem to be doing better in school (my mom still thinks i could do better.) I haven't been crying as much, but I just don't seem to care anymore. I am actually reading a new book called Lord Loss by Darren Shan and I'm still bored. Nothing is entertaining me and i just feel....empty.

Is this what it's like to be in a relationship? I like him and i don't feel this empty around him, but when we're separated i just feel so bored with nothing to do. I don't LOVE him at all, but i guess i just need the company...







Then again, it is that time of month....

Blog Entry # l (cont. 2)

okay, i sounded a little too overwhelmed...sorry....


my day? it was great. I went to school, had a good time, went home and i am now babysitting three small boys...

do i have a headache? HELL YEAH!!

but as long as i get paid. I have to pay for my own Halloween costume. Imma be a vampire (surprise surprise!) I already found the dress at K-Mart. it is only $25 and i cant wait to get paid. My face is already pale most of the time, so i dont need to use any fake crap. I still need to get fangs and i'm borrowing my sisters fishnets from when she was a vampire a few years ago. and he shoes. I need about $30 to get the whole costume and after today, i'll have ... 32, and if my mom goes to to the bank and give me the $20 she owes me, then i wont have to use my sisters shoes



i cant wait 'till ~~HALLOWEEN~~